Merlion professor going through abortion.

Check out the recent news:

Merlion stuck by lightning.

Call me unpatriotic, but I simply would not call this BREAKING NEWS:

Mr Anton Johannson, 23, from Sweden, was disappointed that he could not capture the Merlion 'in action'' on camera. It had stopped spouting water. But when told of the lightning strike, he cheered up: 'Now we have a story to tell people!''

Shawn says it's hilarious because he imagines God saying "take that, PAP!" as HE threw a lightning bolt at the merlion. Hahaha. I think it's quite funny, and how ironic that the PAP logo is a lightning bolt.

Ok, how about more serious stuff... like,

Professor stabbed by student.

This is more newsworthy, I think. But I'm really curious why the student stabbed the professor, it wasn't revealed in the article apparently. AY thinks it was a tussle over grades. I feel that it's rather sad if that was true.

Whatever happened to the enrichment of education? Is the system simply turning us all into grade-grinds? Pretty much noone else understands my zest for education and my love for going to school and sitting through lectures. I'll admit I was less than enthusiastic in my secondary school and poly days, but now at a college level, I realize that every lesson is enlightening. My textbook is like an encyclopedia of facts I can't wait to cram into my brain and my professors just help make it come to life. I simply love what I am studying.

Can we reduce all that knowledge and wisdom to a mere letter grade? When I didn't care for knowledge, I paid no heed to grades. I never understood the desire for a higher grade not accompanied by the thirst for knowledge.

Poor guy, poor professor. Victims or aggressors?

Girl, 9, to abort twins.

SAO PAULO (Brazil) - A NINE-YEAR-OLD girl pregnant after years of alleged sexual abuse by her stepfather is likely to abort twins she is carrying in a case that has shocked Brazil, reports in Sao Paulo said.

He also allegedly abused the girl's physically handicapped 14-year-old sister.

I've always been fascinate by sexual predators and what goes through their mind. (Especially since most rape cases are commited by someone the victim is close to.) It would take me ALOT to be able to hurt someone close to me physically, mentally and emotionally... and to do so intentionally to bring myself pleasure. I could never understand that.

Maybe it's because I am a woman? I decided to conduct my own field research. I pasted the above statements from the article to 4 guys who happened to be online at the time I came across this article and here's their responses.

Peace at last says (6:56 PM):
wow
there are alot crazy ppl in the world now

姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot [Wait in anticipation and fear, the Breevolution is near.] says (6:54 PM):
SAO PAULO (Brazil) - A NINE-YEAR-OLD girl pregnant after years of alleged sexual abuse by her stepfather is likely to abort twins she is carrying in a case that has shocked Brazil, reports in Sao Paulo said.
Steven says (6:55 PM):
ooh
interesting
姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot [Wait in anticipation and fear, the Breevolution is near.] says (6:56 PM):
He also allegedly abused the girl's physically handicapped 14-year-old sister.
Steven says (6:56 PM):
wow
haiz
life is decadent

Janson says (6:54 PM):
like WOW right
and e dad is an ASS
stepdad
ASS

shawn lee miller says (6:55 PM):
more fucked up news

So, I guess that pretty sums it up what the men think of such cases. I'm glad to know that they stand with me on my views =) Great job, guys!

Hunting for men!!!

No, I'm not getting desperate... yet. I'm not actually hunting for men (no, not on my blog. apply at trytofindme@gmail.com) hahaha. This is something even better. I was paid to be an official judge for Mr. Manhunt 2009!

I was seated between the (this is how the emcee introduced them) "Marketing Director of Nutrifirst" and "up-and-coming international movie star and model of the year" (I literally turned to him and said, up and coming international movie star? Reeeaaalllyy...?) Haha. Apparently he's filming some movie in HK, very action-packed and he gets to use a gun or something but instead of shooting bullets, it shoots tracking devices. Kinda cool. So go catch it, I guess.

Oh, and he has a really cool name, Jay-C. I asked him if the C stood for anything, and he said "No. It's just a dash, then a C", then I told him that it's so cool to have a dash in his name and that I'm gonna add an exclamation mark to my name. He laughed like it's the funniest remark anyone's ever made to his name.

So I am henceforth known as 'bree!' :) Sorry to digress, everything just absolutely has to be about me. Haha.

Back to the judges... they all look so normal to me lor... as in, they were very friendly, help me open my drink, chit chat with me... give me tips on how to judge the men (as in, what to look out for in the competition. I don't need tips on judging men, thank you very much), made jokes. In fact, they look pretty average Joe, don't you think so?

(OK, I know the pictures look small, but it will take me forever to upload all of them. So I just threw them all together into 1 big picture. Click on it to enlarge if you want.)There was a performance by "Little Prince Charming"... apparently he won some kiddy pageant. And he sang 约定 which made me melt (and even Andrew, my photographer with the heart of stone, said that the little kid was kinda cute). He's so precious!! (the kid, not andrew).


The men first paraded in sexy cowboy outfits (which remind me of something a very wise person once said, "be kind to horses, ride a cowboy".........yeeehaa!!! hahaha), for the Mr. Cool and Mr. Suave round. We picked Richmond and Alim. (I realize you guys probably have no idea who they are.... too bad. Lol.)The next round was a tough one. "Mr. Nutrifirst" and "Mr. Physique". I was so distracted by the men in trunks, it made it kinda hard to judge.

Me (staring at the hordes of hunks and nudging the nutrifirst boss beside me): errr, how do we tell if they have a good physique?
Him: Well, for Mr. Nutrifirst, I will look at the overall package.. there are a few things I would look out for, like...(I didn't quite catch what he was saying coz the men in trunks were too distracting).
Me: Yea... Ok, so what about me? What do I look out for?
Him: I guess you gotta pick who looks best in swimming trunks.
Me: Hmmm... So I gotta look at their... butts? ooooh....OK!(eyes immediately darting to that area)
Him (disgusted at my drool creating a puddle on the table): Errr, not quite what I mean... (I didn't quite catch what he was saying coz men in trunks were too distracting).
Anyway, him and I ended up picking the same guy, Darren - contestent#2, but Sunny came and bitched about how we cannot pick the same guy coz the rest of the contestents will feel left out and feel sad. So he forced me to change my pick to #6, Jason (which mr. megamoviestar was rooting for all the way). WHERE GOT SUCH THING ONE?? WHY I LET MYSELF GET SUCKERED LIKE THAT??? SIGH. Ok la, I'm a pushover. Sorry Darren!!

But I had lots of fun, and thanks to Andrew for helping me take sooo many pictures with my pink camera, standing alone at the front of the crowd, looking like a total gay perv.... I LOVE U BRO! hahaha.

(Edit: 5 mins later when I realize that Andrew took more pictures using handphone coz my camera was out of batt - yes, I know. the quality is bad and the pictures are very blur. *mental note to self: always charge camera battery*)








Yes, I'm the shortest amongst everyone. But they're all supermodels and if they were my height, I'd lose faith in the modelling industry.

我的小王子 :)

Spent Friday with my cousin, June and her adorable son, Jerome. We brought him out to Marina Square coz June wanted to check out some career fair. But it turned out to be lame so we decided to head back to her place to play some pool and sing some KTV. Jerome was getting quite irritated with mom and aunt anyways and he wanted to go home and sleep. I think he's just at that age where it's un-cool to hang out with mom and aunt.

Anyway, here are some videos of the little prince. I love him so much!!! Isn't he simply adorable? (oh ya, he IS becoming ahbeng-ish. Thanks to his ahlian-ish mom.)

回味９０年代歌曲。

甜蜜的歌曲再度让我情不自禁地陶醉了...
这首古巨基的 ‘喜欢’ 真的好动听哦！好多年前我第一次听到这首歌时我就觉得它的旋律好好听，但我却没仔细留意歌词。我突然间又想起了这首歌，并在youtube找到了歌词才发现除了旋律，其实歌词里的男生好贴心。
MV中的女主角真的好幸福哦！如果有男生为我唱这首歌我一定会以身相许！！=）哈哈。



喜歡你的頭髮 喜歡你的臉頰
喜歡你微笑的時候眼裡藏不住的光
喜歡你的害羞 喜歡你的瘋狂
想要一天24個小時守在你身旁

喜歡開你玩笑 喜歡叫你傻瓜
喜歡嚇你一跳的時候看你慌張的模樣
喜歡搭你肩膀 喜歡你會怕癢
喜歡趁你沒有防備偷襲你的手指甲

想要抱你一下 貼緊我的胸膛
想要告訴你這樣下去不是辦法
想要把你綁架 想要帶你回家
想要非常認真嚴肅的承諾地老天慌

思念你令我驚慌 想到你令我膨脹
你的每個笑容都會令我幸福的快爆炸
見你的時候 我總是說些傻呼呼的蠢話
令我隨時隨地瀕臨瘋狂...

说到老歌嘛（其实也没那么老啦），还有多一首歌总让我捧腹大笑　－　陈小春的情瘤杆菌。哈哈！

We'll be dancing in the moonlight.

We get it on most every night
when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

we get
everybody here is out of sight
they dont bark and they dont bite
they keep things loose they keep it tight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

we like our fun and we never fight
you cant dance and stay uptight
its a supernatural delight
everybody was dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

we get in on most every night
and when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybodys feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybodys dancing in the moonlight

Middle of Nowhere.

I'm convinced that E-fei "educates" for the sole purpose of mocking my ignorance.

Remember Exhibit A when he told me that plants cried and I didn't know? I bet he was less than sympathetic about my underprivileged access to useless facts.

Today in class he enlightened me again. It all started when I, being such a sweet and innocent angel (who totally does not deserve that kind of mockery), decided to introduce myself to the new student in class and invite him to seat with us during lecture... and here's what E-fei did.

E-Meanie: Hey, gerard are you an exchange student?
New Kid: No, I'm an international student.
E-M: Oh, where are you from?
N.K: Dubai.
Me (the sweet innocent angel, as mentioned above): Oh, that's in India right?
E-M (bursting into uncontrollable fits of laughter): HAhaHAHAha. If you're gonna take a stab in the dark, at least guess somewhere in mid Europe la. Nearer.
Me: Oh, Dubai is near Europe. (I learn fast. Proud of myself.)
N.K: Yes. It's in the middle east.
Me: Turkey! That's in middle east. (Violet's ex was Turkish. So I know.)
N.K: Yes. (He must be impresed with my vast knowledge)
Me: Isreal! Middle east too. (from the bible.)
N.K: Yes. (He must be thinking I'm some kinda geography guru)
Me: Oh ok, so near the Jordan river, somewhere there.
N.K: Err, Yeah. It's near Emirates.
Me: Oh, the airlines!
N.K: Huh?
E-M: BWAhaHAhAHaHa -choked on his water and died laughing.-


............................wth.

By the way, can someone please tell me why it's called the Middle East?? East of what? And isn't the middle part of the east.... considered EAST as well????

Sigh. Too confusing.

Listen to the rhythm of the rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain
Telling me just what a fool I've been
I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain
And let me be alone again

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know
That when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain please tell me now does that seem fair
For her to steal my heart away when she don't care
I can't love another when my hearts somewhere far away

The only girl I care about has gone away
Looking for a brand new start
But little does she know that when she left that day
Along with her she took my heart

Rain won't you tell her that I love her so
Please ask the sun to set her heart aglow
Rain in her heart and let the love we knew start to grow

i wonder if it's raining too, wherever you are.
it's times like these that i miss you most...

YumYums.

This is the reason I get up every morning...

Bree's Special hotdog. With lettuce, tomatoes and egg.
I always wake up reaaally hungry. I dunno why.


Complete with my morning coffee...

And my juice.

I won't be fully functionally till I've got these 3.

Spealing of being fully functional, I've managed to re-set my bio-clock!!! Woohoo. I slept at 2am last night (some of you might argue it's still late... but if you read my previous posts and see the unearthly hours I've been sleeping, you will be so proud of me!) and woke up at 8.30am!!

I'm so amazed at myself. I had set my alarm for 10am, but I woke up waaay before there. Good job, bree!

买东西，吃东西

我刚在网上定了飞往香港的机票！！！

Ok, I should stop with the mandarin (No, that's not the extent of my vocabulary. It's just easier to type in English. Don't be mean to me on my blog.) But yeap, I just booked my tickets to Hong Kong!!! -if you even understood any of that mandarin.

I'll be leaving on the 8th of May (and yes, I'm travelling alone again) and I'm very sure the flight will be more bearable this time round... It's a direct 3 hours plus flight. Compared to my flights to Melbourne which was 20 over hours and transitting all over Australia.

It was so terrible not being able to talk to anyone for 20 hours. But well, me being me, ended up chatting with random strangers at the airport and on the plane (in fact, I think I was talking so much that the guy sitting beside me was really close to jumping off the plane). Oh no, I just realized my cantonese is terrible.

Mental note to self: Brush up on Cantonese.

Cloudy Monday Morning.

I've finished studying for my stats exam.
It's 7am, I should be up in 3 hours.
But I drank coffee and now I can't get to sleep.
It's pointless to sleep for 3hours anyway.
I should go for a jog.
I'm rambling.
The sun is rising and it's kind of nice to smell the fresh morning air.
I stood by my window drinking my coffee just now and watched as people were waking up, going to work and school.
I like the smell of coffee in the morning.
I hear the birds chirping.
I always loved the sights and sounds of dawn.
My coffee's cold but I drink it anyway, I don't know why.
Good morning, Monday.

View from my bedroom window.
I love how sky turns orange just behind the trees.

My January Je t'adores...

Long long long overdue (and very long) post... (as the title suggests, a good 1 month overdue) hehe. But here's the pictures of some friends very very dear to me. And thank God I got to catch up with them before things got so hectic that I don't even have the time to blog about them!

I think it all started when Hui Ching & Albert wanted to watch 'Red Cliff' and they invited me.. and I brought Raj. After that, we headed over to *errr, i forgot the name* at Esplanade for dinner, which turned into supper coz we sat down and talk for hours. Haha.

I love them so much for the intellectual conversations we always have, on evolution vs creation, nature vs nurture, psychological and communications theories, Sigmund Freud theories (I know, we're geeks). We all have such differing views that we can debate for hours and learn so much from each other (because we are all learned in different fields of study). Je t'adore!!!

Hui Ching & Albert!
The look very attentive and preoccupied, don't they? Guess what caught their attention!

Rajwin & his theories about creation vs evolution!

I realize this is the first time (perhaps) that I'm introducing Hui Ching on my blog. Hehe. She's one of my dearest friends in college... I simply adore her! She's someone I can always talk to about anything at all. I remember how our project discussions always end in 15mins, but she and I will end up staying in school till really late coz we will chat for 4hours after that.

Oh, she's also my best work partner. We have great chemistry together and I love doing presentations with her... even though she and I have totally different styles (my presentations are radical and attention seeking, while hers are professional and organized), we are rather dynamic together! I have so much crazy ideas, and she's organized enough to execute them practically. She completes me :) Je t'adore!!

Albert is just one of the most brilliant minds I know. Ask him anything about anything. He's like a walking wikipedia... who agreed to help me build a PC, by the way *ahem*.. And for those things I just mentioned (among many other things of course), he's one of the most cherished friends I have in college. Je t'adore!!

(suddenly feel bittersweet about graduating soon. sigh)

Raj... what can I say? The sweetest angel anyone has ever known. Ever so forgiving, ever so kind, ever so nice. He's one of my bestfriends in school, at church, and in the entire world. He's been there for me through the tough times and has helped me become a much stronger person. I look forward to picking him up every morning to go to school because what better way is there to start the day than with a great friend? He always hops into my car with a great big smile and he's always genuinely happy to see well.. anyone. Haha. Everybody loves Rajwin.

After dinner (while the men were still deep in discussion), Hui Ching and I ran off to snap pictures!! The view was so gorgeous we simply could not resist. Nice nice?? I was using a canon ixus (that girl was using a SLR...dammit) so I had the problem of - if I use flash on my camera, the lights won't come out nice.. and if I don't use flash nothing will show at all.

Anyway, I played around with the manual settings to adjust the shutterspeed... and here's the best I managed.




This is the best I could do... The pictures are blurry because the shutter speed is slow. So in other words, I have to remain perfectly still for almost a minute for the picture to be captured.

Then on the first day of school, after class Raj and I went to visit Pastor Pritam (Raj's uncle) and Aunty Balbir's baby boy!! He's so lovely... I simply just want to carry him and squish him in my arms. Je t'adore!!

Then came CNY. I have read many blog entries on other blogs about CNY and I regret not dedicating much web space to mine.. but I simply have TOO BIG a family and too much going on during the CNY that I don't have time to blog about it or to even take pictures. I did manage to find 1 picture that I snapped at my grandparent's place on the 1st day, though. They just happened to be standing in this formation, allowing me to take a quick picture.

Top row: 2nd aunt's hubby, 2nd aunt, 1st aunt, mom's cousin (my uncle who's like only 27 and hates me calling him uncle)
2nd row: mom, 4th aunt, mom's aunt (the 27 yr old uncle's mom), cousin (2nd aunt's 2nd daughter)

Yes, my chinese family is very traditional and we all address each other by ranks and orders. I think it's pretty cool. I love huge families. This is merely 1/10 of us. Je t'adore!!

On the 2nd day of CNY, ww took me out. Apparently we had arranged to meet up quite some time ago. Since he works in HK and was only coming back for CNY, we agreed to meet on the 2nd day of CNY (which I conveniently forgot).

He called me in the evening and I didn't pick up coz I was napping and I only called him back at 11pm at night (only to wake him up from HIS nap... or was it sleep?). He sleepily reminded me we had a date, to which I assumed was off since it was already near midnight. But somehow we decided to meet anyways and within an hour, I was waving to him out of my bedroom window. That was kinda cool. Lol.

In his car I decided to take pictures. Then I decided to take pictures of him. Then I wanted a cool "hey look, I'm driving" picture, but he kept looking at the camera. So I told him "don't look here, just pretend you're driving". He tried to argue that he really WAS driving and he didn't have to pretend... anyways, long story. But I guess that kinda explains why he looks funny and has a weird grin on his face in this picture.
We headed to the beach but apparently everything was closed on CNY (Why??? CN-why?)... even 7-11 (Why??? CN-why? ---Ok, is this annoying anybody yet?). So I decided to take him to the neighbourhood bar that I always hang at with the boys.

Me: Let's go to High.
Him: High?
Me: Yep, Hi! *waves*
Him: Oh, Hi :) *waves back*

Anyway, here's us at High @ katong... where he ordered Devil's meatballs and couldn't finish them coz apparently the 'hell sauce' was too spicy.



The thing about neighbourhood bars... is that everyone in the neighbourhood goes there. The moment I came home that night, someone messaged me on msn saying he saw me there with ww. But somehow the person didn't come over to say 'hi' at high. (hi at high! Get it?? Hahaha.) Strange.

Ok, now sit at the edge of your seats and hold your breathes for another month. I might upload February pictures soon.

Bruce's boom...

I was watching Bruce Almighty again on my computer and guess what I saw???

Yeap!! Boom in frame! For a good half a minute too. And it was shaking. I wonder why I never noticed it before. Apparently I heard alot of movies have boom in frame, like Titanic and all, but just that the scenes were too dark to notice in. I guess it's just kinda unlucky that this scene is almost entirely white.

If you guys have the DVD, please check it at around 83:33 and see if it's just my downloaded copy of the movie. I doubt so, since boom in frame is like a production error made during filming right? So all copies of the film should have it.

Anyway, I woke up early today. Like at 4pm. IT IS RELATIVELY earlier. so there. boo.

I let myself down.

I drank coffee, and went straight to bed. It's comforting to know that caffeine no longer has effect on my body. I need to explore new alternatives for all-night studying :(

I fell asleep at 2pm and woke up at 8.45pm (Thanks to Andrew who kept calling me tirelessly)... And now I'm on the way out to meet the boys at the beach for another night of frolicking in the moonlight. Sigh.

When will this all end?

I swear, I am at least 2 tones fairer with all the nocturnal activities I indulge in.

Here comes the sun.

For the first time in DAYS, good morning Mr. Sunshine!! Ever slept so irregularly that you felt like you LOST an entire day? I'm feeling so cheated right now :(

It all started on Monday night, I think. I stayed up chatting online till 2pm on Tuesday afternoon. (YES, it's amazing. I came home around 2am on Monday 'night' and chatted for 12hours. Apparently I talk so much in real life that even online, I can't stop yapping - I seriously wonder how my friends can stand me). So I guess it's safe to assume I didn't sleep on Monday night. I fell asleep at 5pm on Tuesday afternoon.

I woke up at 10pm on Tuesday NIGHT and watched movies (yes, I just downloaded bit torrent!! Anyone know of any good free sites???) till 5am on Wednesday MORNING... then I dozed off and woke up at 2pm (on Wednesday), conveniently missing my morning class (I know, I'm a badass). I did however, go for my 3pm class and was supposed to join AC and the boys at sentosa but decided to do some window shopping by myself in the city.

Went to St. James with the guys on Wednesday night (around 1am) where we all got pissed drunk, til 4am and then we all went back to AC's place and swam till 7am and then went for Mcdonald's breakfast and I crawled home at 8am... ON A THURSDAY MORNING.

I woke up at 8pm last night.... and watched Anastasia, facebook'd, and chatted for awhile and guess what - IT'S ALREADY FRIDAY. WHERE DID MY ENTIRE WEEK GO??? I've been up all night and I totally refuse to sleep because I just can't afford to waste another day and wake up at night only hours away from the weekend. It's TGIF AND I miss the sun....

OH gawd, I've not seen sunlight in so long. I must be fairer. Somehow the days seem much shorter if you're away only during the night time. I desperately need to switch back my bio-clock. I WILL NOT FALL ASLEEP NOW. I WILL WAIT TILL TONIGHT TO SLEEP. I simply cannot sleep my entire weekend away...........NOOOooo!!!

And whatever your mom said about nocturnality being a vicious cycle, I swear it's all true. All it takes is 1 night of folly. Sigh.

Will power, determination and coffee don't fail me now. *Slaps myself awake*

Plants cry too...

I was explaining to e-fei why I don't eat raw sashimi... and the conversation somehow evolved to this.

pas de chance says (10:58 PM):
food is animal
plants cry when you eat them
at least the animal's dead

姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot says (10:59 PM):
!!!
plants cry!
they do???
omg
dont lie

pas de chance says (10:59 PM):
they do

姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot says (10:59 PM):
come on

pas de chance says (10:59 PM):
they weep

姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot says (10:59 PM):
it's cruel to kid me like that
SERIOUS???

pas de chance says (10:59 PM):
vegans are twisted

姐妹情深 bree blogs @ girlyjazz.blogspot says (10:59 PM):
oh. MY. FarKinG. Gawwd.
how do the plants cry

pas de chance says (11:00 PM):
they make this ultra sonic sound
like when someone cuts a tree
the other trees weep too

He sent me a link... and yep, he's not lying. Plants DO 'cry'.

It turns out many vegetables have a kind of built-in distress call -- releasing chemicals into the air when they're in trouble.

The warning system is so sensitive, Miresmailli said, that some plants sound the alarm even before an infestation begins -- when insects first begin laying eggs on their leaves.

Exactly why plants do this is unclear, said Miresmailli.

One theory is the chemicals serve as a kind of natural insect repellent.

Another is that they attract even bigger insects, which then feed on the invading pests.

There is even some evidence the chemicals are a way for plants to warn their neighbours of impending attack -- so they can take steps, like emitting toxins, to save themselves.

Whatever the reason, it's clear plants have a way of letting the world know they're in trouble.

Check out the full article at Plants really do cry...

Monday Blues. for real this time.

Neurosis, also known as psychoneurosis or neurotic disorder, is a term that refers to any mental imbalance that causes distress, but, unlike a psychosis or some personality disorders, does not prevent or affect rational thought. It is particularly associated with the field of psychoanalysis.

I just feel depressed. No reason that I know of, or perhaps the reasons are so underlying and ingrained that I'm just oblivious to it. Maybe nothing is wrong... maybe everything is wrong. Sigh.

Isn't it scary that life is unpredictable and we do not have everything planned? When SIM called me and told me to prepare for graduation and convocation, I freaked. What do I do after graduation? Where do I go? I've always figured out what I wanted to do as a career, but a career isn't the end of it. Yes, it is a big step... but what about the collateral decisions that come with it?

It seems like ALL the decisions I have made in my life, the past 20 years, up till this point, seems really trivial and insignificant as the ones I'm going to make in the next 10 - what job do I do, am I marrying the right man, should I buy a house, what about children?

It's like all my life I've been grazing in a nice field that's been fenced, but that's fine because I don't really care for what's beyond my boundaries... But now, it's like the field is barren and I have to explore past my comfort zone... in search for greener pastures. But what if I'm already contented?? What if I don't quite care for greener pastures?? I feel I'll die in this barren field.

It's like every mistake I've ever made in my life up to this point isn't even going to make a dent compared to the crashes I'm gonna take from here on. It's scary. I don't wanna grow up.

Am I going through a quarter-life crisis??? Somehow, I feel that I'm not even scraping the surface of my depression. I feel that there's more... or perhaps there's nothing. I'm whining abt random stuffs, but I keep missing the bull's eye. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I'm DEPRESSED.

Damn, I'm really messed up, aren't I? HAhaha. Bet you regret stumbling upon my blog.

AUgh!! It's not like me to get so emotional and depressive!!! I hope I snap out of this real soon!!!

"Neurotic", or affected by neurosis, has come to describe a person with any degree of depression or anxiety, depressed feelings, lack of emotions, low self-confidence, and/or emotional instability.

Hmmm, maybe i'm just neurotic................

Happy Valentine's Day...

Earth angel,
Earth angel
Will you be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
Im just a fool,
A fool in love, with you

Earth angel
Earth angel
The one I adore
Love you forever
And ever more
Im just a fool,
A fool in-love with you

I fell for you
And I knew
The vision of your lovliness
I hope and I pray,
That someday,
Ill be the vision of your
Happiness

Earth angel,
Earth angel
Please you be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
Im just a fool,
A fool in love, with you

I fell for you
And I knew
The vision of your lovliness
I hope and I pray,
That someday,
Ill be the vision of your
Happiness

Earth angel,
Earth angel
Please you be mine
My darling dear
Love you all the time
Im just a fool,
A fool in love, with you



*slow dance with me to sweet familiar tunes...

Monday Night Blues... sigh =)

The best way to get rid of Monday blues is when he sings the blues...

shawn lee miller says (11:41 PM):
i don't care just what you say cos forever i am right you may think that you're the one but my darling bum bum bum

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:42 PM):
pls go on i'd like to see how this one ends hehe

shawn lee miller says (11:43 PM):
fly with me under your wings but my darling schwing scwhing schwing

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:43 PM):
nice one =P lol

shawn lee miller says (11:44 PM):
oh....please......flap your arms....ba brina

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:44 PM):
... ba brina?

shawn lee miller says (11:44 PM):
you just want to be a sheep just so i say you help me sleep

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:45 PM):
that's actually quite sweet

shawn lee miller says (11:45 PM):
counting all the jumps you make jiggling as your bum bum shake

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:45 PM):
HAhahaha

shawn lee miller says (11:46 PM):
oooooh.....please......shave your wool.....ba brina

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:46 PM):
... ba brina?

shawn lee miller says (11:47 PM):
it just came into my mind ba ba brina big behind
am i annoying or what

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:50 PM):
dont u know it luv

shawn lee miller says (11:50 PM):
but funny and creative hehehe

姐妹情深 we shldn't be afraid to live, love... coz we may not be the young ones very long. says (11:50 PM):
oh yea hehe definitely but still annoying

shawn lee miller says (11:51 PM):
who else will sing to you like that



Hence, closes another episode on ba ba brina big behind who has a better screen name than sha sha shawnie silly slime =)

When the going gets tough...

This song gets me going :)



*We shouldn't be afraid to live, love, while the living's strong. Coz we may not be the young ones very long. And why wait till tomorrow? Coz tomorrow sometimes never comes. So love me, there's a song to be sung, and the best time to sing it, is while we're young :)

OSIM - Oh Shit It's Monday...

The worse thing that can happen on any given Monday... is realize that you have to sit through 2 hours of Stats lecture... SIGH.

WELCOME TO MY MONDAY.




The ONLY thing that brightens up my Monday morning is this note in my organizer reminding me of AC's birthday pool party this Saturday...

Luckily COM125 was alot more fun. Thanks to Abel... and his pictures...

And his interesting stories....

"Why issit that an elephant so big can be tamed by a trainer that is much small than it? Because the trainer chains the elephant up since it was young and weak... and when it tried to escape when it was young, it couldn't. Hence, the elephant grew up with learnt and accepted hopelessness... that even when it becomes big and strong, it still doesn't try to escape or act against the trainer.... Children learn the same way too..."

Some chart on the different aspects of cognitive learning...

And another insightful observation + drawing...

"Good trees bear good fruits, bad trees bear bad fruits. Good trees cannot bear bad fruits and bad trees cannot bear good fruits....."

1/2 hr more to freedommmmm....... SIGH, yes. I was really really boreddd......

Notes taken during lecture. One was from stats class, one was from COM125... guess which is which???



Apparently I wasn't the only one who developed artistic talents through sheer boredom.

Kayla: See!
Me: Really? That's him?
Kayla: Him? Him who? I don't have a boyfriend...
Me: Oh, thank god.
Kayla: OEI! WHY!
Me: Errr... if he looked like that....

Ok, for the benefit of you all who have never been in Abel's class... here's rare, actual footage of him telling a story.